Sissy in a Southern way
to this day, I miss.
I protested once:
Mommy, please don't call me that -
I spat - I hate it!
In her eyes I saw
She took my words literally
to heart - like a knife.
No salve could I find.
The wound - too deep - persisted
Still pained when she tried.
My mama called me
Sissy in a lovely way
I'll forever miss.
I honestly don't believe in regret, and as I've written, it is my practice not to collect them.
But if there were one moment in my life I could change, it would be this one. The careless, harsh words of my angsty teenage self could be apologized for. They could be forgiven, but they could never be forgotten.
Perhaps, given another 15 years to work on her, Mom might have been able to call me "Sissy" again without it catching in her throat, half-spoken.
Instead, over a decade after her death, I console myself with my own voice as I call my own daughter "Sissy" nearly every day.
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